Motivational Monday: What It Feels Like To Take A Huge Leap of Faith

Happy Monday everyone :)

Hope everyone is having a good start to their week. For me this week is a little bit different. I am finishing my current traveling assignment in preparation to move to Florida on Saturday. It still feels surreal. I feel like I keep saying it but it is not my reality. I still feel like this may be insane but totally worth it.

A year ago I sat thinking what do I want for my life, where did I want to go and how was I going to get there? All of these questions weighed heavy on my heart for a long time. I thought and prayed and thought some more....and then made lists. Tons of lists honestly. I thought about where I could go with my company and what I could do as a traveler to continue traveling without burning out. I hear from people who travel like I do that they burn out and stop. I know personally I am not even close to staying in one place. So not traveling is just not an option for me.

Sooo....what did that mean? First, it meant getting my financial situation in check. Paying off my medical bills and getting focused on the plan ahead. That meant working 6 sometimes 7 days a week to pay off over $6,000 of unexpected debt. It took me months but finally in February I did it. All of the debt was gone and I was back to my original financial plan I created when I began traveling. What happened next was pure faith.

I got in touch with my recruiter and started the process for applying for my Florida license. I didn't tell many people about what I was doing because even though I was starting the process I was not 100% sure I could do this. I questioned if I could handle really moving 17 hours away from everything I had ever known. Could I do this on my own? Was I strong enough? Was I myself again? These questions could not be answered but I knew the process took time and money. So I went for it. Passed my exam and declared to the world that I was taking this leap of faith.

Enter this week. Packing. Planning. Thinking. Stressing. So much to think about, plan for, potentially knowing this may not work. That this could be a mistake but I knew deep down that I had to do this. I had to try. To find my happy place. A place I could call my next temporary home. It was time to leave behind everything that still brings me to have a heavy heart and just have faith that this is where I need to be. There is a feeling in my heart that I just know this is right. Even if I don't have an assignment right away. I have decided to move. I have been saving money in preparation for this potential change.

So here I sit thinking of all the potential changes coming my way...instead of worrying about what if I am focusing on the endless amounts of opportunities and travel options for this new adventure. I have always been someone that gives my all, puts my heart into everything I do and has never been afraid of doing something crazy. I know at the end of the day that no matter who supports me that I am making this decision for me.

This decision truly has brought me to tears, tears from fear, excitement and faith that this will all workout. Saying good bye to my family and friends was much harder than I expected. Leaving behind so many memories and important people brought an emotional breakdown I could never have imagined. It made me realize how blessed I truly am to miss people so much already. Taking a leap of faith is crazy, fear is not fun but neither is regret.

My life has changed so much and as it continues to change I have learned a lot. I have learned the strength that I truly possess. The strength of my faith to trust in God that this is right. That this is what I need to do to continue to improve my quality of life. I have gone from one life plan to a completely different plan. Constantly changing. Constantly growing. And constantly being thankful for what I have and have been through. I have learned that is what is most important.

So 6 days left....here goes nothing!