I know every day I post. I post about my workout. My Shakeology.
My nutrition (the good and the bad). I post about my life as a therapist and a
Beachbody coach. But I only post the surface stuff. I have a hard time sharing
my personal struggles. The things that hold me back from really achieving my
bigger dreams. Those scary goals that no one knows about.
I struggle with sharing because I don’t want to be judged. I
secretly do care what those close to me think and I don’t want them to think I
have become a sales person. Or I have lost myself and completely abandoned who
I am. I guess I feel sometimes that no one would really care what I post about
because I’m not that interesting.
So….today I will openly share who I am because I preach about how every life matters, every one matters, that all of my clients matter.
I’m 27. I’m a traveling therapist. I am a gypsy. I am a Beachbody coach. I am
adventurous. I love the water. I love dangerous activities. I love speed. I
want my life to matter.
How did I develop into this person?
I have always been one that loves traveling and when I was told
it could be part of my everyday life I was in. I loved the idea of constantly
moving. Going to new places. Learning new things. I have a love for speed,
adventure and trying every possible activity I can. I am that person that would
jump off the bridge if you dared them to and then do it again.
I thought I had developed my life, the life I always hoped for,
the life I dreamed about. But for me those dreams were different. I didn’t
dream of a wedding since I was a little girl. I didn’t dream about growing up
to be a parent. I wanted to be successful. I wanted to live a life that was
great. That when my time came I could be proud of. I wanted a life that meant I
had someone who truly loved me for me. Always.
I struggle with the thoughts of marriage and children. I was abandoned my by biological mother at 12. I went to therapy. It didn't do much more me because I hold things in. I am not comfortable crying in front of others. I hate being vulnerable. I never realized how much this did matter until I got older and I lost people that mattered.
I had developed my dream life. Or so I thought. One day that wonderful life I
had developed was gone faster than I could blink. I lost people who I thought would be in my life forever. People that I miss to this day. I became sick with a
life threatening mass a month later. And then the final straw for me, my lungs
(which have sucked for a long time), had it and I began to collapse post workout
on the regular.
I was done. I didn’t care about anything. I was devastated.
Emotional. Fragile. Things I had never truly felt before. I hated waking up. I
hated that everyday I cried and I felt it would never stop. I was sick. I was
tired. I was miserable. I lost sight of everything that was positive in my life
and became depressed. I hid it well but inside I was dying.
My doctor wouldn’t let me run anymore and the gym slowly wasn’t
my thing. My love of fitness was gone. It felt like I was losing
everything that defined me. That made my life great. It wasn’t before long that
the weight kept coming and my body was changing. I didn’t notice it because
honestly, I had stopped looking in the mirror. I blamed myself for everything
that happened and felt like a failure.
I was at my rock bottom by the time summer came and the weight…was
still there. I saw a post about a health and fitness group and said “what’s to
lose.” I didn’t have extra money at the time from unexpected medical bills but
I did not care. I put it on my credit card. Stopped having lunch out and was
able to pay it off the next month. I told myself this was it. Commit now or you
will forever be lost.
The first week I did not take it seriously. I was eating gummy
bears. Not ready to give it my all in my workouts. Then my game changer
moment-people were getting results after week one. Seriously awesome results. I
was jealous. I was hooked. I started really pushing myself. I quit with the
excuses and BAM I GOT RESULTS. 10 pounds and 10 inches later I was getting
there. Slowly getting my health back on track.
I freaking felt great. I had more energy. I loved working out
again. I was improving on my eating (although let’s be real it can still be a
struggle). I started embracing my struggles, my pain and my heartache. I
started to realize I was my own worst enemy and I was a fierce enemy to myself.
I had no desire to coach in all honesty; I wanted the discount
and workout programs. I didn’t want a third job at the time. But when someone
privately messages you and tells you that you motivate them to wake up every
morning and to push play. You are in and you didn’t even know it.
Coaching was my game changer in life. Coaching allowed me to be
open and honest in a private forum with people who were not only positive but
real. These amazing people have developed into some of my closest friends. They
provide me with daily support and accountability to achieve all of my goals.
They keep me in check and embrace me for who I am, struggles and all.
Coaching helped me pay off the unexpected medical debt that I
balled my eyes over in my doctor’s office parking lot.
Coaching helped me pay off my smaller student loans and my car.
Coaching helped me to realize that I matter, I have a purpose
and I have self worth.
Coaching has opened up more doors and given me more confidence
then I could have ever dreamed of. I never was a confident person and still struggle
daily but now I know I can do whatever I put my mind to.
All because I choose to workout 30 minutes a day, to pay more
attention to what I was fueling my body with. All because I gave it 3 WEEKS.
Yes that’s all it takes.
Am I at my goal weight? No. Am I financially free? No. Am I
happy with all aspects of my life? No.
BUT…I am one step closer everyday to becoming the fit person I
used to be. I am closer to my financial goals then ever before. I am still a
work in progress with what I want for myself and I am still working on
accepting the things I cannot change that affected my life so greatly.
I didn’t think I could do this but my team did.
Do you want to know what it’s like when an entire team of over
one thousand people believe in you?
Then fill out my application below and we will chat!!
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